363 karma · joined October 27, 2020
Wait really? What world are they living in? Am I just out of touch or something?
Maybe it sounds a bit extreme to see admitting you are wrong as announcing you changing your worldview, but it just kinda feels like that for me, even if it is about something small.
Also, for me at least, I have this weird anxiety that, whenever I tell someone I made a decision, that I could never go back on that decision. It feels really weird to me. For the longest time I felt like I couldn't let anyone know I wanted to live a healthier lifestyle, because it somehow felt like, if I told anyone about it, I could never go back to comfort food and stuff like that. Not sure what that is all about, even my psychologist didn't understand it.
I am not expecting this to be a silver bullet for sightreading. There is still gonna have to be a lot of actual music reading involved, but it is the goal for this to eliminate a bottleneck and give me a bit of a head start. I just want to do more playing and less searching for now.