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My second thought on this is...ouch, this is the same kind of stuff I'm tasked with working on in my present job. As I've mentioned elsewhere I work for a...fairly massive...corporate entity in the United States and I deal specifically with customer and member data. The majority of that data is highly protected and regulated, but the tiny little bit that isn't...we're working (and spending a ton of money) on "enriching" it from other data sources..and I absolutely hate it. This is a new direction for the company since there was a lot of executive leadership turnover in the past two years. But it makes me feel sick every time I see a new meeting pop up that involves Experian or Neustar or some other data broker. And the work on mining customer data from one part of the business to the other, people brushing off my objections because "look we already have legal approval, you need to get on the train before it leaves the station"...I hate every second of every day of it.
That said, I'm taking as good care of myself as I can without going to the extreme. I don't want to deny my one short, brief life the pleasures that are here to be experienced but I also don't want to artificially shorten my (already stacked against) life.
I have decided however that I won't be dying in pain in some hospital if I can at all help it. I've watched it happen. I'll either live somewhere that assisted is allowed, or I'll FEED MYSELF TO SHARKS...something, anything, other than the slow waste of a hospital.
But half the time my short term memory is nearly useless so I have to write everything down. So much static from my internal monologs, constantly talking over each other. It's exhausting sometimes. So I just write down everything..what I'm about to do, what I was just doing, what I just thought to do next week...all goes in the notebook.
Obviously I was mistaken and I've had multiple iPhones now. That said for all their advancement I still, once in a while, look at the BlackBerry Passport and consider buying one...just because it's a square :)
I dont fault the startup for it but it certainly sucked. I've not worked for a startup since though sometimes it does feel like something I'd enjoy. On the flip side...
Currently, I work for a fortune 5 company. I work with some of the brightest people in the world on projects that move the needle every single day. Yet, the team that I specifically work on is constantly strapped for cash. Our services are used across the enterprise, we enable the company to save millions and we do it in a scalable way. But we are told that we can't have "enterprise" funding which means that we need to scrap and claw money from the people that use our services just to keep them online. There's so much politics that it gets in the way of the work and, again since were not funded, we can't hire FTEs and usually can't even get work from an agency unless its funded from "a client."
All that to say...I really, really hope that my next job has a better balance. I know that no job will ever be perfect. But I'd love to have a balance between "working with bright people who support the work that we're doing but without guaranteed funding" and "working for a soulless megacorp with infinite money that wont spend it but that offers job security."
The biggest reason I work so much is that the team I’m on is very small and I’m the “sr architect” which sounds considerably fancier than it is. In reality I’m the architect and the engineer and the prod support agent and the integration and business architect. Because my team is not considered essential we do not have budget to hire more FTEs but because our “internal clients” ARE considered essential we are basically at their mercy. And I see other teams in the company get descoped every month. So I’ve been trying to keep the workload handled so that my team doesn’t all get fired. But I can’t do it anymore which is why I’m trying to leave. Had 6 rounds of interviews with our biggest competitor over the past two weeks and I think they all went well. So hopefully in a couple of days I’ll be able to slap down my two weeks, burn my never used PTO, and hope for better days in a new org.
When I moved and left for college I was married already and most of my friends were not. My wife and I weren’t big into the clubbing thing so old friends sort of fell away. We did both make some friends in college, some mutual and some exclusive. But there were social factors that made that difficult - mainly we were very, very poor and were often embarrassed to have people over or go out since we couldn’t afford to. A small handful of those friendships live on in my wife’s social media but I have no social media footprint.
After college we both worked and that’s where I picked up the friends I have today. Two (now former) coworkers and a former boss. We have an ongoing text chat and we’re pretty open about real stuff. As luck would have it, both my former boss and I moved to the same state for new jobs and live fairly close. So the four of us (we and our wives) hang out on occasion.
At my current job I’ve picked up one more friend with whom I talk regularly about non work things. But I’m unsure how long that friendship will last as we’re both seeking new jobs, she’s leaving in a week and I’ll (hopefully) be leaving shortly thereafter. Hopefully it’ll last, but who knows.
My wife is better at making friends than I am. She’s joined several local groups around her interests and is slowly building a new social circle. But for me I tend to work from maybe 4am to 7pm and often during the weekend. So by the time I shut everything off at night I’m just so exhausted that I don’t have much more energy to do anything.
But yeah I think the company learned a pretty good lesson in that maybe it’s easy enough to fill a seat but replacing someone is a different story. And replacing -everyone- is a whole different genre xD