My mother's dad died of stomach cancer, my mothers mom had a brain tumor and died of organ failure, my mother was an alcoholic and died of liver failure, my father was an alcoholic and died from massive organ trauma (he made a series of bad decisions in rapid succession), my father's dad had multiple heart attacks and died of complications from MDS, my father's mother is still alive. There's a history of mental illness, cancer, diabetes, and overall poor health on both sides of my family....

That said, I'm taking as good care of myself as I can without going to the extreme. I don't want to deny my one short, brief life the pleasures that are here to be experienced but I also don't want to artificially shorten my (already stacked against) life.

I have decided however that I won't be dying in pain in some hospital if I can at all help it. I've watched it happen. I'll either live somewhere that assisted is allowed, or I'll FEED MYSELF TO SHARKS...something, anything, other than the slow waste of a hospital.