lonelyengineer

Thank you, it wasnt long before I started thinking if I was undesirable because of my physical features AND my attitude.

It's a slow process and I hope I too can one day have a normal life, with someone by my side.

I respect myself and women to know this won't solve it. I don't really care for lack of sex, its the lack of love cuts deep.

Thank you. I probably have some deep seated issues that I seem to be working with, one of the women I had attracted to had said some remarks (about a third person) about these features and I implicitly assumed that most women looked for those qualities.

I have no such detailed lists. I'm human and flawed, some of it stems from not accepting myself and a lack of self-love.

Thank you for your kind words. I do need therapy, I would dismiss such suggestions when I was young and foolish, it's funny how a few years make you realise that one isn't normal as they perceived themselves to be.

I don't plan on quitting, and have taken active steps to help myself by trying to get fit (injuries and poor diet led to me being obese)

Thanks again!

Thank you for your kind words. I'm guilty of underestimating myself, and recently a friend told me that as I quoted $28/hour for building an e-commerce platform store.

I've never had attention from a woman, and usually I find it's just me being hopeless sending them mulitple texts and being annoying (and often neglected, as I have nothing of worth to offer). I stop I don't know how sweet nothings are uttered, I don't know what pillow talk would be like. I don't know how life with an other adult works. My only intimate experience are vicarious from books and films.

Maybe that's what life is about living one's own film with them as the protagonist.

Thank you for your kind words. I honestly don't think I'm a low value mate. I've demonstrated loyalty and my friends know this. But not yet a high value mate as I'm in the market for a job + student loans, fear of driving, etc.

I've always been risk averse due to the way I was brought up. Failure was death. I would avoid doing things that could have an outcome related to it, and unsurprisingly impacted my engineerong skills a lot. I would double check everything before executing code on even staging (and of course the Intern mishaps as usual).

I have started to work on myself and quite recently lost some weight and trying to get into some discernable shape. Can't thank you enough for taking your time out to help a fellow man, hope you have a wonderful evening and the rest of the weekend.

I can relate to this,

I'm a 30 year old virgin, graduated with tech-related masters degree, and still a virgin.

I don't resent women, I love women and some of my best friends are women, but I can't see myself ever having a physical experience due to my physical shortcomings.

I'm well under-averagely endowed, a member of an undesirable race, and quite frankly think the age for acting as a goof for me has passed. I don't know how/when to ask women out, and I'm afraid if it'll be interpreted as sexual harassment. I'm no good looking chap for it to be considered flirting, might as well endure loneliness than social suicide.

I cry myself to sleep some nights, but at least I get to live a life where I can feed myself and distract myself by helping others through work/volunteering.

Cherish your loved ones, and don't take them for granted. The pain of never having those experiences is something I'll never wish for others.