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Fortunately, my friends who are better off are very supportive - in some of these interviews I can't help but think I sound desperate or maybe just annoying.
Thanks for your kind words
I've realized this is kind of what my mental model has lead to, the worst part is I don't really know how to fix it or change. Fortunately I have years of living expenses if needed, have insurance and a number of close friends. However, WFH has gotten me to a point where it's a struggle to even do a few leetcode problems a day, work on contracting or even make a youtube video. Insurance doesn't cover mental healthcare and it never really helped before.
Been applying to jobs for about five weeks and other than a few interviews nothing has kicked back. Either no response or flat out denied, contemplating just re-learning a bunch of leetcode stuff I hate. All of my friends make north of $200k and I've just been floundering.
Future does not seem bright - clearly my track record is a black mark of some kind.
Hope things get better for you my friend.
When money was cheap to borrow, borrowing against stock and increasing headcount was seen as a metric that could pump stock price. Hence, hire as much as possible (especially engineers since they drive the most value at many of these huge tech orgs). Problem is, money is no longer cheap to borrow and real revenue is king now - having excess headcount that isn't resulting in clear value (something these companies are exceedingly good at measuring) means layoffs to reach the prior equilibrium of "real revenue" generated per engineer.
I'm somewhat moderate and I definitely do not trust cops and do not appreciate their presence in my neighborhood or around my home. I get it, it's a hard job, but at least attempt to solve heinous crimes - for instance, a robber shot a handgun 12 times and the police simply threw their hands up saying "yeah, we just cant find that guy" even though a neighbor had clear video evidence of the license plate and individual attempting to walk up to their garage.
Even low speed crashes or encounters with pedestrians can result in serious head injuries.
Food was generally really disappointing, however grocery stores / delivery apps were incredibly useful. The most annoying thing to me was how certain neighborhoods flat out do not accept Visa / Mastercard. Basically every other developed nation accepts Visa, I was annoyed and decided to not go back to areas where they literally couldn't take my money. That said, PUBLIC TRANSIT IN NL IS ABSOLUTELY INCREDIBLE! But I don't for a second believe many ppl don't get TBI's from bike crashes without helmets.
The biggest issue that still arises in highly insulated homes is moisture buildup. Even with ample air circulation, modern building techniques at large have accepted having a home that "breathes" is more important to prevent dangerous / destructive mold from growing in enclosed airspaces / under siding etc.
Also, "high performance" homes in most of the country, especially the east coast are at least 1.8x to 2.5x as expensive as the average builder home. This is simply not accessible even to relatively financially equipped home buyers.
That said, my current apt is incredibly well insulated and in comparison to my parent's home it's wild how much more efficient my dwelling is. At times in the winter I barely use my heat pump for days at a time to keep my home comfortable.
For this reason, I'm going to be cremated with molten salt from a solar installation when I die :)
Anyone who has worked for amazon is fully aware of how the company internals being literally held together with duct tape.
Great angles / production value - also cool to see this vehicle!
That said, where I currently live there's just not that much opportunity in-person / I'd vastly prefer train commute to driving.
Plan for now is to keep churning at current TC full remote as long as possible, re-evaluate when my lease is up for renewal. I was glad to leave New York in 2021, however it still undoubtedly has the best opportunities in tech for those of us who have no interest in relocating to the Bay Area.
edit - I can without question say I'm glad I avoided the FOMO of buying a home. I love where I live now, but if remote wanes to any significant extent I'd go out of my mind dealing with traffic.
It's not a stretch to observe society as degenerating when we have continuously normalized blatantly degenerate behavior with clear harm to younger members of society.
Current VW from 2012 is going strong, other than a bit more oil and some paint fixes I haven't had to put much money in.
My next car will likely be a Hyundai or Toyota in the "gold" tier suggested for the Comma 3.
Props to MB for finding another way to grift rich people and suckers who are financing the car to pretend to be rich!
Do police need armored vehicles, body armor, and assault rifles (or access to this kind of data) NO.