daniel-cussen

Harry Potter was the first one to do this. It was really funny, make little kids feel big and proud of reading a huge book so fast, like takes up so much bookshelf, big impressive book. Dude 1.5 point margins, not double spaced because then people notice, big fucking big fucking characters (which isn't terrible, it was in fact easier to read, squinting is harmful), and then like tons of chapters like not 12 like Cien años de soledad no lots of chapters, I got lobotomized so my memories are kinda fucked but to the best of that lobotomized memory the first Harry Potter had like 45 chapters. Chapters are great because every chapter means you get a break...a pagebreak.

The refresh rate is bad. It's worse. Books are better because they have such a low refresh rate. Like I wouldn't read a book with weird ink, or one written in pencil. Forget it!

You're dead on. Metals are sold by how fine they are, so .999%, .9995% (should end in a 7 numeral not a 5, whole industry is fucking up right there, but at any rate) .9999%, more nines more purity better experimental results. When they talk about 4 nines or 5 nines the actual measurement is of the f(x)= - log(1 - x). That is the purity. Negative of the log of the complement. And that's why 4.5 nines should be .99997% not fucking .99995%, so stupid (it's almost exactly .99997%). Mining engineers, come on! Such impressive degrees! PhD's all over the place! Professors even! I'm sorry, don't mind me with my math.

Some experiments like with liquid crystals early on required purities that what chemical company was it, Merck I think, around the year 1900, complained like they felt insulted. Told the inventor of liquid crystals because it was an absurd amount of purity required to get them actually working. But look at them go! Right in front of your very eyes!

If you get accused of Rape and get a trial, it costs $25000 for the lawyer. A lawyer quoted me that when I asked, post-lynching, when I finally got counsel like 11 years later. That's the price! Guess the price of college has been going up a bit fast! And by the way, financial aid won't cover that. Lawrence Lessig put it best when I asked him to help me lawyer up, "it's a rich kid school." Although in that case it's no better, there's extortion, feminist professors with hundred million dollar diamonds hidden in their house they covetously look at. Billionaires kid? You don't want this hitting the papers right? And like they specialize in getting the billionaire father to doubt his son. They got my father doubting me screaming why did you harass her and I told him a tiny bit of the evidence to get him to stop threatening me. And he instantly went and told the dean, which meant I couldn't tell my own father any of the disgusting wanton slut evidence I had way too much of.

Yeah there's lots of street fights here. So one way of communicating it is I used to wear flip flops but after two aggressions (one of them rape extortion) I hate myself for having backed down on--strictly because I was wearing flip-flops--I never wore flip-flops again. I like running shoes, those are much better. Dude never wear uncomfortable shoes not even to meet the President of Russia. Suit yeah but with sneakers. Of course! Once you get whacked, you never go back!

I talk why I never will in part III.

Dude I'm a Roman Law hero, I just won my 34th street fight, I'm taking the stairs now because I see too many smiling faces on the elevator, I was scouted many times and eventually actually went to get photos taken--I was a straight model, and the tallest model at all the castings.

Nobody ever talks about this black hole. No man has ever--apparently--come forward first of his own accord to denounce how destructive these lynchings are. Not all of them can take place in court--certainly not mine, maybe next week I don't know, any day now I'll get my trial. Someone has to win in the court of public opinion.

And frankly I really do want the Mark of Cain, it's wrong for women to be like "oh great look who's crossing the club to talk to me" then we hit it off, then ten minutes later (it takes longer for the most attractive women though) I start losing my nerve and deliberately reveal my fear. They deserve to know the reason I can't go home with them UNCONDITIONALLY EVER FORGET IT is because I got lynched. They deserve to know I went through a decade of rape extortion, caving into demand after demand so I wouldn't end up in the abyss. Dude I couldn't sit down with a lawyer for ten fucking years. Is that what you mean by someone in my life that I trust that I can talk to? It was extortion the entire time up to that. And I have nowhere to come up with the $25000 it costs to mitigate the lynching. No Stanford student except the kids of billionaires does. Lessig put it best, "it's a rich kid school.".

This is it. Besides it's largely bots on this site, and nobody reads the walls of text, in fact in part III this forum was the only document that didn't get destroyed along with most of the other evidence. I'm telling this to myself, I'll read this, I'm the intended audience.

Like I treat your gratuitous response like the bots accusing me of being mentally ill and a bot, same as I was called a rapist and a virgin. It's like a prompt from a book of writing prompts. You don't actually give a damn.

PART I

So with military work, it's not about being required to kill as much as getting it that the killing needs doing. An overpowered army like the Americans conquering Iraq will induce trauma, but if you're outnumbered and alone, and you win? In my case unarmed. Five times, Thursday was my first 4-on-1, not a scratch. They threw a rock at me, 505 grams (I just weighed it), it hit a lamppost. Holy shit, screamed at the stoner QUE CHUCHA PERRA!! FUCK YOU, which is what you're supposed to say in the circumstances, being ganged up on and all, but standing your ground. It's my turf. I told them never to come back, the rapist said he'd come back any time he wanted, no respect. That's what he said! I told him there'd be consequences! I was within my right, not the initiator by any means, I've been a Roman Law hero for ten years by this point, that's gotta add up to something!

So things are getting crazy violent. A little too violent. More than would be entertaining for a neighborhood, too much. American Embassy in Santiago said I should pack my shit and go back stateside. But you know what? Where? Stanford has worse rape extortion. California...Canada same, all about the straight white male Christian, like...no I'd rather be a totally hated minority where I can actually claim to be a minority and defend myself (and the rest of the minority obviously, I'm the only gringo who could have realistically retaliated for that sodomistic screaming catcall, nobody else literally nobody), but all the same...the fetish for lynchings is even worse in California. The rape extortion is the motor of the Californian economy, or should I say, the Fornicalian economy? Fornicalia. Women open up to me about rape extortion in California all the damn time, just the rent is insane pervy rapey landlords taking all wages (and frequently colluding with employers hearing about you getting a raise before you do). One woman was working in a Hispanic Supermarket, just said the rent is disgusting, while knowing full well (exact) what she made. Literally rape extortion. Her landlord, like most Californian landlords, was a rape extortionist because she feared and he know and now I know and I vouch the first thing that happens upon eviction is rape. Landlords threaten with rape. That's how they make money for nothing. Like yeah bring in a handiman every now or never, nah. Another one, this is damning, I was in a psych ward (as I frequently am), and one of the staff opened up about the rape extortion. Didn't actually say rape! But complained, it's all so competitive, rent is so disgusting, meaning she never profited from her work, and she was telling an inmate in the asylum! Because at the end of the day, they see me and know I'm not a bullshit guy who wants to barge through the door without saying hello, fuck as infectiously as he think he can get away with, and jump out the window without saying goodbye. A good man, a man who wants to be a husband and a father, a Christian, the absolute only true monster.

Really beautiful women trust me, I kind of hate that trust but oh well. Particularly when they tell me they've been raped, I hate that! That burns all bridges forever, because that means a greater than 1 in a million chance of accusing me of rape! And frankly having heard enough by this point, all beautiful people get raped. All of them. It's inescapable, they're targeted the most. The bitchvictim media sabotages their defenses because it wants them to get raped. Stanford feminists argue not, say it's about power, but they're chock-full of dogshit, it is partly about power but it is mostly about genetic reproduction. Get real. My accusers are so gross, I turn my phone off around them because I wouldn't touch them with a photon! Just gross, Ariel and Ashley, nothing so gross as betrayal, not glamorous at all, each synonymous with ten thousand instances of rape dungeon punishment. Dude can't go to Stanford reunion to talk to my witnesses because my accusers are very empowered and lying in wait under a bridge. When I returned to Stanford years later all I could think about was switching classes to something with no women, two female professors was terrifying because of the disgusting gullibility of the deans thirsting for a pretext to extort me with sodomy. Neither of them stood upright the whole meeting when they accused me of rape, because they couldn't they both had erections and both had eyes glazed. Witnessed the meeting of the minds, I arrived last to a meeting meant for me alone with the dean, and there were three other people there, you think they spoke before I arrived? What a complete gang-rape. Perfect crime because they knew if they accused me of rape at maximum speed with all the most disgusting ejaculations implying my guilt, off a script, and didn't let me open my mouth at all until the double bind where I was expected (being under coercion after all, sodomy extortion already being declared) to confess. Yeah never figure that one out.

But with this screaming sodomist, this Thursday, no post-traumatic stress disorder. More rather, losing my shit, as many on this forum said I was, but wasn't at the time, got it vetted by my doctor mind you, now it's like...am I living in a society that only wants to rape and murder me? It all started when a flamboy with 5 inch platforms screamed at me "gringo culiao" meaning calling me cooperative with being raped, ie by him, it was rape extortion, dude...without me saying anything to him, just walked down the street, being white, being tall, being straight, being a stranger to homosexual sex, and THE WORSE OF ALL having a fully straight backbone, from winning 33 conflicts before then. How am I supposed to hunch after 33-0? It's an animal status thing, dogs raise their tail, men raise their backs. Very visible when I'm also 6'2" (188 cm) (but for real, not like men who tell women they're 2 or sometimes up to 4 inches taller than they actually are, in person at least, on a dating app who gives a shit 6 inches taller). Specifically determined my height at the doctor's office because I kept getting asked what it was at castings, and while I could say it was 190 cm and they bought it, I said 189 cm (didn't round up), my best estimate, until a checkup where I asked for it exact. 188 cm is very tall, I don't know, only seen one woman taller than that in my life. So all that, and I guess people read my having been a straight model, and in some cases (teenage women especially can tell, I hate this about them) that I'm a hero (strictly according to Roman Law, got called a hero meeting all the criteria), then that's when I get targeted. It's a combination of their being 4 of them and 1 of me, the impunity, the feeling of power that I can be accused of being a violent homophobe for retaliating against a homosexual with 5 inch platforms screaming rape extortion at me, and of course his 5 inch platforms guy was like 5'5" without them, they uplifted him. They made him feel big, and it was the first time I encountered a flamboy dressed as a goth with such high shoes, hard to compensate in my mind, it was like he was 5'10". Besides being sexual display, ordinarily of being a homosexual, but in the context, of being proposing sodomy. Specifically had to do with my being white. So "gringo culiao" refers to my whiteness, like he wanted to stain me with his superior sodomist genetics...like what is he then going to buy my children, with his DNA, a gift for their first birthday? Will he go to their baseball game? Put food on the table? Give that daughter a generous allowance so she can buy outfits freely, which I heard one beautiful girl say once, and made me want to someday be the father who could come up with the money for that. Alimony? Pay for the wedding? Go to prison if he's behind on child support? Because he's screaming that he's straight, everybody's straight, he wants to have babies alright, he just doesn't want paternity himself, he wants to spread his genes through me. Wants to infect me with thousands of sexually transmitted infections, which in addition carry his human genome as a reward for spreading them, that's the endgame. I've been getting these threats for decades, and I'm just fed up with this shit, they always get mulligans and it's sodomy extortion, it's just wrong. And I'm realistically the only gringo who could retaliate for that, no other American could go back and give him a chance to back down on the sodomy threat. And follow through when he arrogantly upheld his threat of sodomy.

END OF PART I

BUDS is literally that, every SeAL does that. Not optional.

Not accusing the SeALs just the force I'm most familiar with.

A pipeline is impossible to guard so it's so so easy, it's a cakewalk. The real challenge is the impunity, you don't want to get accused like eg Allended accused CIA of blowing up its pipelines in Chile (gasoductos y olioductos) and the train line. It's a one-dimensional structure that is vulnerable along the entire distance, and more valuable the greater the distance it covers, so more valuable as it is more vulnerable.

Really to protect a one-dimensional resource conveyor, you need retal. There's nothing else. Everybody talks about protecting themselves, yeah and what wear a helmet to cross the street? No, no helmets! Yeah then make the pipeline's steel a meter thick, to protect it.

Retal.

America does that, when terrorists blow up its pipelines in Iraq for instance, they hunt them down and make them regret doing so. Not say they're sorry, make sure it turns out to have been a bad decision in hindsight. Those pipelines don't need to be any thicker. It's the thickness of the initiator's skull that must be overcome.

They do 100x harder shit than that every day. Navy SeALs are in 40 countries on any given day, that's just SeALs. Like no risk of death from that, no risk of needing to use SERE training, NOTHING, BUDS, basic underwater demolition, EASIEST SHIT!

America would blow up oil pipelines in Chile when it was getting dangerously close to Democracy, Allende said so in his final address. Plus it's business.

Qui bono?

That's like week 8 of BUDS (basic underwater demolition system) in SeAL training.

This started shifting in like 1990, with the crazy self-inflicted bitchvictimization of McDonalds's acting so pathetic because they scalded a woman causing 3rd degree burns. Ended up killing her because she couldnd't stay interested in life after all the humiliation from every angle. Died in part of her injuries. Poor little McDonalds' guilty as shit gets its poor account SUED (they always like ejaculated that word, way too much emphasis, highest accusativity) a 78 old lady who did literally nothing wrong. Corporate America also started spreading rumors of lawsuits like a man shooting a burglar and he falls down the stairs, sues for bad stairs. In Latin America! There were TV shows about "stupid lawsuits"! And of course highly interested in juries getting losing money by being juries, and resisting the courts catch up with inflation. Yeah.

I do see a psychiatrist.

So that movie is also paid for by Coca-Cola, make the objector to fluorine look like a crazy monster, in order to undermine objectors in general. It's a straw man. It's an inb4. It's yet another confession.

Hate speech is protected by the First Amendment. It's totally legal.

Why, you ask? Well read Machiavelli's The Prince. He speaks the prince ought to be loved and feared, or simply feared if he cannot be both. Further the only thing that prince must himself fear and avoid is hatred. Hatred is the response to raping and stealing. So Machiavelli says, don't rape or steal, and you won't be hated--he says property and honor, but that's what it means.

But then some psychologists and shrinks got some focus groups together and said, OK, can we tell everybody hatred is bad for your body, it leads nowhere ever in the History we allow you to read, and further never ever let anybody read the passage in the King James Bible:

"I hate them with perfect hatred. // I call them mine enemies." KJV Psalms

If that can be accomplished, maybe the prince wouldn't be so restricted from doing what is in the best interests of his people. Marketing campaign against hatred, make hate speech illegal like they're trying to now (in some ways already have).

Always ask when someone says hatred is wrong, which already is an arrogation of moral authority above the Bible, again, ask: "Are you a shrink or a Viking? Rape and pillage?"

It is up to the powerful to conform to the rules set by the population. Without marketing campaigns against entire human emotions, including also anger and jealousy, like make them illegal, screen for them. Yeah. Never been a reason to be angry. Never be jealous of a man raping your wife. If he's doing it, it's because those better than you deemed it was best for you to tolerate that. Tolerance. Tolerate. Patience. De-escalate. Violence is bad, bad bad, you're a bad boy for being violent, it doesn't matter who started it, violent violent violent violent racist rapist racist rapist racist rapist WHITE--dude. Did they give all that same advice to the aggressor? He sure took it didn't he!

I can't genuinely feel hatred because I don't have a stress response, but if I could, I would feel it, when it made sense to. It's pretty simple, hatred means never cooperating and always defecting with another player in game theory forever because you decided he wanted to exploit you. It's not automatically a bad strategy. In fact, if it's slandered so much, there's got to be something to it.

Cept in San Francisco, it swirls all the way from China and like 18% of the air pollution is from there. Like it was a suckafucking Japanese balloon bomb, the first intercontinental ranged weapon, only dent the Japanese made in the Manhattan Project was with that balloon. Very overpowered.

It's not such a big planet.

You want to see broken old stuff? Anything involving mana:

https://scryfall.com/search?q=mana

No card has ever been nerfed as hard as that.

Gotta say since the British Petroleum scandal last decade, Big Oil has done a bang-up job of not having oil spills. And you know that's ecological, it was one of Standard Oil's priorities, to reduce waste. First to use burn gasoline to power their trains stedda dumping it in rivers. That sounds like it's not ecological but think it through it's got words that don't sound ecological like the word gasoline and the word burn, but think it through, it's very ecological. Oil spills are bad for the environment right? They now have cleanup costs. The companies ought to be more careful. And now they are! They are careful! In addition to all that it's oil they can sell, meaning for somebody to burn, carbon dioxide is pretty innocuous compared to all other oil derivatives. It's profits too! And then they do it, and then! Nobody says anything. Nobody thanks them. Nobody says "hey you did a pretty gosh darn good fucking job at selling oil."

Nobody says that.

I'm nobody, so I can say that.

Always always there's private property, always, like it is not about whether you own your own underwear it's more about who owns the means of production. And further I highly question sources I don't personally read in Russia, in Russian, because if you read it in English in Oceania you're reading what the defectors say. 100% pure defector speech. Why would a Russian Communist suck up to the West and write in American English? Or a Chilean Marxist, would he speak American English that ordinary Americans could read? How could that ever come about? There's tons of Chileans who are very talented and got offers to study or work in USA and they learned enough American to say "FUCK THAT SHIT!"

Why? Because they consider America the culprit of 9/11, you know 9/11, nine eleven, nine eleven. The 9/11 bombings. The 9/11 bombings and terrorism. The 9/11 bombings and terrorism that were commemorated 38 years later with similar direct deaths and highly monument-specific bombs, as a retaliation for 9/11. 3000 dead, 3000 dead, no children, no children, monument, monument, capital, capital, terrorism, terrorism. Nine eleven.

Plus being told it's wrong for the poor to beg. In Chile only the rich are allowed to beg. It goes like this: "hey can I have ten cents!" [poor begging rich] "Get a fucking job you piece of shit!" [rich begging poor]. Telling a poor man to get a job, in Chile, is begging, because jobs they realistically can get all pay less than they cost, it's a gift to the rich man, a donation, charity for the rich, begging. And injure the poor in the process, or demand he betray his fellow man. That's why I always try to come up with something for beggars, they're doing the best thing they could be doing by begging, working would be terrible then they'd get a back injury on the first day, feel denigrating, which addressing (which society dodges, prefers they take that injury and insult to their graves) would cost millions. Just huge waste of money. Better they beg and I give, that has objectively superior economics. Like I talked to one who got a job, told him yeah duh that job is over it was a shit job, he was like uh how did you know? I just know because I just know. And then I gave him a 20000 peso bill, which I first broke for him at the kiosk which I can do but he can't, so he could spend it. And told him "spend it on whatever you want! Whatever you want!" Dude try to preempt him asking me, asking hurts, people insult you, it's degrading, people call you inferior, people beat you for asking just like people piss on people sleeping on the street to indulge their sadism. I've also seen guys take out a 10000 bill (like $10, but big money in Chile), stretch it out, and then laugh their ass off. Dude it's so cruel. Nobody thinks it could be them sitting on the concrete.

And they have all kinds of stories these guys, dude I love talking to Jonathan Ramos here, dude way better than all therapists I've ever spoken to in my whole life combined. He told me "obviously you got tortured, look at the things you say, you lay out the truth for people clearly!" No picólogo could have ever said that! Dude categorically superior to every professional therapist! And that cost 4 dollars!

That's how you get a big tip.

Not aware of any Uber drivers told swallow these bags no questions just swallow, drive, and shit on floor at the destination.

Things got ironed out quite a bit, the fifties and sixties were really good. Cuban Revolution, suddenly there was sugar in the kitchen. Big sugar rations! Increased rations! Then later increased even more! And while yes basically they were poor they were at least all equally poor, that is a much better outcome. They had privacy from Capitalism (weren't getting big data analytics extracted from them), and plus, Russians never made the big bucks off their expansion, never cashed in on it. Unlike everybody else ever.

So they are campaign contributions visibly in order to justify the gratitude but also underneath there are bribes.

There's a third choice. Madman that works the system.

So in fact, when a corporation does something disgustingly criminal, like Abbott did to me twice, with Depakote and Clozapine, second time I was wise to their shit, dodged their shit, they sell shit, they're shit salesmen. Door to door. Knock knock who's there? A shit salesman. A shit salesman who? Abbott, we're doing another round poisoning you in a way that we know is wrong but will not be provable for 8 years, you want this? You have to swallow every single time if you consent! And by the way, you can't get eat enough to not lose weight (at a waist size 32) until you consent, we'll ask you 70 times, and if not you're on the street! Remember, always swallow because we have a swallowing fetish. So legally you're always allowed to dodge, the swallowing fetish is because it's an experiment on dosing 100% of a group, in this case a rehab, diametrically against their will and obviously against their interest. It's a "fuck the Law" context. A preparation for rehab, see what the objections were and how to overcome them. I said fetish for swallowing, that's literally what it is. They aren't legally allowed any any of the shit they do, at Clinica Rayencura, like dude saw them bribing police, whatever the fuck. Police hanging out, getting bribed, just hanging out, because they chased "fugitives" who escaped, which is also totally legal, and captured them, and sent them to a weird clinic and injected them with...with whatever. At a certain point, you gotta accept you'll get dosed and the purity of your blood is in GOD's hands, or some shit, I don't know. So these shrinks in fact stop GOD from getting into their wards, only prison with no Bibles, you can't go to mass on Sunday or even think of doing so, what else...no they let you pray, they don't fuck with that...what else...dude check your mouth and ask you to stick out your tongue to prove you swallowed, that says it all. And that pill, clozapine, diminished thought, made time go by faster, starved the brain to feed the body fat, people's weight doubled on that shit, disgusting. Automatic obesity. But there was consent! Signature, you consented to this once, that's what you have to swallow every night!

So obviously if Abbott tries to poison me again, like I'm going to read the brand name, dude get real, woafs (wastes of a fuck) will poison you until they get shut down...or until they get told "your company is imprisoned, all your staff have to work out of a prison every day under surveillance, cavity search daily, no quitting no hiring, it's forced labor like ordinary prison, you go home at night, that's what you get, anybody who didn't denounce it". The real corporate jail penalty.

Only survivor in the rehab. Only one who didn't gain 40 pounds. The alpha.

EDIT: downvotes are upvotes. So what I say sounds like paranoid or whatever but yeah duh that's how I didn't get fat. Only the paranoid survive? Only the paranoid stay skinny.

$30 billion fine, that's appropriate. Dude get the pricing right, government should get valuators for this, it's not a percentage of the profits, it's double or treble the damages.

OK that's cool, didn't know about bpermute. Made sense there should be a counterpart. Well when you only have pshufb, it works OK, yeah there's tons of gaps but if you're clever and...and if you compromise speed...thanks for telling me about bpermute!

Which is the point of SIMD. Several moves for the price of one.

The running like a coward part is always the pretense. It came down to being given a trial, 6th amendment. Let me tell you it's no easy feat getting your day in court, I've been waiting since February 6, 2009, and been suffering the punishment every day since.

Any day now.

Thanks, I'll look them up. I have read Jack Kerouac, On the Road, great book. [Flashback 20:57 Sep 25, Jack Kerouac, (this means I just remembered the memory for the first time since the lobotomy 13 years ago, specific distinct sensation that happens the very first time I follow a pointer to that memory). Yeah that's me. Let me say here my words are poetry really, in prose format. Prosetry.

So for an explanation, the same thing happened to me that happened to August Rodin.

Too literal. His statues were too literal so he made sculptures to the point he was accused of literally putting molds against the subject's skin to shape it, which is easy. Nobody really buys this story. Everybody--even at Stanford, which has Rodin statues everywhere, in the places of most honor, largest collection of Rodin statues outside Paris, talk about Rodin a lot but--disbelieves the story.

Let me vindicate him now. I had too literally perfect an American English, and that meant everybody assumed I understood how the system worked, when I also assumed I understood how the system worked--different system. So in Chile it's like an egg, there's a shell, as long as the shell hasn't been cracked they respect you, honor contracts, you're set. Chile would have given me a trial in my lynching no matter what. Literally no matter what. In fact I was counting on a trial no matter how kangaroo--kangaroo court would have still been court, plenty good for me, in Chile the courts aren't kangaroo so much as intensely Kafkaesque, but with loopholes for literally one in a million to be spared. I in fact did that, 200000 Chilean students finished high school 2007, I got the best college results by Hacker News standards and in hindsight also. Counted on being the Harvard black of Chile, one slot for the country, got it. Nobody can believe it. Dude no American no matter how racist bigoted like WASP dude Mayflower nothing sees me as anything other than American. That is not where the discrimination is coming from.

That was a problem, I couldn't communicate to the administration my copious copious copious evidence or talk to witnesses, nothing. Well it was a lynching, might as well have been speaking Chinese.