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Also, my point about COVID was exactly the fact that when I first heard of it around the end of January '20, and how bad it could potentially be, there were no masks available to buy already, heck, we did not know it was an almost fully airborne virus then.
Whatever happens, happens. Nothing I do will change anything about this. If it's as disruptive as you've described, I know my Government will do something to prevent massive job losses.
I don't see this as the end of the world, and frankly, my life is shitty enough without Chat-GPT.
Again, what can I do about it? This reminds me of listening to TWIV, a podcast about virology, about COVID before it hit my country and being like "it's going to be bad, but there's nothing I can do about it".
Once it hits, we'll see from there.
I've been having a mental breakdown about this for weeks, what degree, if a degree, etc... Man, had I known I'd be in this position in life some years ago, when I was 16, I would've... I don't know, I would've just done something else in life...
Thank you nonetheless.
When I was little, I was bullied, I never fitted in. When I got to High School, I became a Chronic Liar, telling everyone how awesome my social life was and imaginary girlfriends, and other lies. I did it because it felt me feel... Accomplished without doing anything. I cut the bullshit at 18, when I went to college, but then I dropped out...
I will look into that test. And I know a lot can be accomplished in a year or 4, I just need to stop bullshitting myself and do it.
Commute-wise, it's just that I'm much more mentally stable when I live with my parents. At first it was about the money, but now it's about having them around.
Thank you for the book recommendations.
I struggle a lot with jealousy, but it's the fact that most of them are already successful and I've failed so much. I talk to them and the only thing I am reminded of is how much their lives are better than mine.
It's even more depressing when one of them calls me at 9pm to hang out and I'm like I don't WFH unlike you, and my commute is horrible, so sorry, no. It's all I think about when I talk with them.
I don't know if my life will be better than the lives of others, though, as I don't have a degree, and I am seemingly less intelligent than others, which limits my ability to learn as fast/income-wise.
Slowly beginning to lose hope, but as you said "It's about the quality of your life."
Kinda reminds me how Twitch has this bot to remind you to stay hydrated (and keep streaming) but not to go out and on a walk every so often (I mean, you could stream while walking, but if you're for example a COD streamer that ain't gonna work...).
I wish you the best and do your best to get a job and get your life moving. I believe in you.
I have already looked into online "alternatives". However, it feels like getting accredited makes so much more sense.
I know that comparison is the thief of joy, but it's hard to have friends when most of them are more successful than you are.
In person-courses in my country are less expensive than online courses, but I'm working atm, which is why I am looking into online college.
Also, most other degrees don't have the same employability as CS.