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>What helped me a lot with social stuff was CrossFit and Martial Arts, and dance classes. These things will make it easier to get dates and you will make friends

Is it really easy to get to know people in those situations ? I am awkward with people atleast for a month after I meet them. 2-3 years ago I went to the gym regularly for half an year, but didn't manage to befriend anyone there or even get to know somebody's name. Maybe I wasn't trying or the gym is just different...

I will have to try search for something related to hiking/being out in nature. It's been on my mind to do something that makes you feel alive - that generates adrenaline ? I am a little fascinated with how humans fit in nature and what it takes for us to survive in the wild away from civilization. And in general the idea of overcoming physical challenges of your body. Even though I am a softie... Maybe there is an activity like that.

A couple of people mentioned depression. I am a little scared of ending up in such a condition. I will maybe try to find a therapist to visit. It has been on my mind to go to one, but I have been and still am afraid it might go wrong ? Since I was little I've had this very active imagination - spacing out to some fantasy world is a constant part of daily life. I do it while walking, listening to music and often while I am around other people. Day dreaming helps me escape life for a bit and I am scared to talk to anyone about it. Because it's silly and sometimes concerning - I think about saving the world, climbing mountains, visitting other worlds, or hitting/killing other people during some conflict (imaginary people, not those from my life). It's a big part of me and I've never talked to anyone about it. A therapist might make me talk about it and that scares me.

Thanks for the advice.