A couple of people mentioned depression. I am a little scared of ending up in such a condition. I will maybe try to find a therapist to visit. It has been on my mind to go to one, but I have been and still am afraid it might go wrong ? Since I was little I've had this very active imagination - spacing out to some fantasy world is a constant part of daily life. I do it while walking, listening to music and often while I am around other people. Day dreaming helps me escape life for a bit and I am scared to talk to anyone about it. Because it's silly and sometimes concerning - I think about saving the world, climbing mountains, visitting other worlds, or hitting/killing other people during some conflict (imaginary people, not those from my life). It's a big part of me and I've never talked to anyone about it. A therapist might make me talk about it and that scares me.

Thanks for the advice.