You aren't alone. I suggest looking around and seeing what resources are available to you. Personally, I benefit immensely from weekly therapy, but this is not available to everyone.
Thanks for the advice.
A therapist can't and won't make you talk about anything you don't want to talk about. What you share (or don't) is entirely up to you.
Not sure where to get a recommendation for a therapist -- best thing is to just call, book the appointment, and go. Tell them your problems, ask what you should do.
Then go from there.
If that therapist sucks -- I figure 35% will -- then do the same thing with a different therapist.
Find someone close to your office or home.
i think just like anything, spend some time studying the code. maybe it will eventually start to make a bit more sense once you become familiar with the over-engineered, abstracted-to-hell piece of shit object-oriented codebase.