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Thanks For the encouragement! What kind of methodology does your therapist use? Is there a good way to choose a therapist?

Thanks both for the feedback and for the resources. Yes, I will definitely see a therapist.

For some reason, when I try to edit this post, it doesn't update it correctly, there's a paragraph missing:

On the other hand, whenever my mind find something interesting, I can have a lot of focus. I'm able to spend a couple of week only thinking about that issue, during that time, nothing else really matters, and I can't really get interested in anything else. I have difficulty talking about anything else with my partner (which she used to find annoying). This can be anything from a problem at work, to researching what the best video projector would be and trying to understand everything behind the technology of all models in the market place... I do have a tendency to become completely uninterested about that subject or that task after it. So, for example, recently, I suddenly became obsessive about headphones and audio gear, I researched everything about them, bought quite a few high end headphones (spent a quarter of my salary on them) but by the time they finally arrived, I was no longer interested and couldn't even really find the motivation to test them. I barely use them and they are now gathering dust on my shelf

I'm using a throwaway account for this because I don't want to be this candid with any account that can be traced back to me.

After reading some of the response mentioning ADHD and the issues people have, I wanted to talk about my issues and see if it resonates with anyone else and if others relates to it. It's not something I ever really discussed with anyone and I do think it would be good for me to hear from others.

I have a mental barrier to doing certain tasks. For example anything related to paperwork or bureaucracy, I want to do those tasks, I know I must do them but whenever I start thinking of them I have a kind of barrier that stops me. It's extremely difficult to overcome that barrier. While I dearly wish those tasks were done, when it comes to starting, I cannot muster any of the motivation...

If I read a novel, I will either finish the novel within a few hours (or series of novels within a few days) and forget to eat or do anything else or, if I stop, I usually never come back to finish it.

It doesn't affect my work much because for work I do meet deadlines and I work from home but I'm still able to find the energy to do things. I do have one issue in that if I know exactly how to do a task, then the only for me to really complete it in time is for me to do it while watching tv or something that distracts my brain a bit. Otherwise, I quickly fall into looking at websites, spending time on hacker news or reading about anything new that piqued my interest.

I've never thought about seeing a therapist until now, but recently my girlfriend broke up with me mostly because of this and I still have a very hard time pushing myself to do what needs to be done (I really want to do it but whenever I start, I just hit a wall, it's like there's something pushing me to ignore it and do anything else... I sometimes even end up not wanting to do anything else but still can't muster the energy to start on those tasks)...

Apologies for the rambling...