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A super simple button on Reddit that I can click to download an immediate version of whatever it is on v.reddit. I currently just yt-dl it but would be faster in-browser.
My biggest gripe with ESEA is that I cannot have Hyper-V enabled on the OS that I am playing from.
TF2 has this issue where people can change their interp in a certain fashion that allowed hitscan guns to have a broader headshot range. I'm not sure if it still has it, I haven't played TF2 competitively since 2012. Looking at R6, nothing ever seems to line up properly between two clients for pixel-peeking, fast swings, or slow peeks alike. Something feels off about it compared to other shooters, but I can't pinpoint it. It feels like it's interp as it mimics the issues other games had related to interp.
For reference, I don't want to seem like some random person who just does badly and blames it on networking mechanics, I'm diamond in siege, A+ in ESEA and global in mm, held top 10 on the leaderboard in PUBG. (It also does feel nice to be able to say that sometimes, even on a technical site like this.)
I've seen his videos a lot. Also Escape from Tarkov, if you see in his videos he has listed at 93hz. In reality, the game has horrible issues that cause clients to experience desync, allowing delays nearing 1 SECOND in reality.
Tarkov used to have an issue where if you repeatedly opened and closed specific doors on some maps, it would create desync that was ever-growing. You could sometimes end up dying 5 minutes in the 'future,' while your client is 5 minutes out of date. It doesn't happen anymore thankfully. The game is plagued with other issues though.
Glad to say I've overcome it, but I still take Methylphenidate as it helps with my severe depression.
Walmart can do one thing right, while Amazon has the majority of it right for me. It's going to take a lot to sway me away from Amazon.
It's a sad state of affairs. I only heard part of the second day, but one of the ladies asked a question about the Obama administration using that survey leading to the huge amount of data gathered. Had it not been only four minutes, I feel this is the question that would have lead to the most important discussion of why it was not against terms for that administration to use Facebook data, but was for Analytica (Other than the fact that it was sold to them, but I believe unless Zuck passed the buck, it could have lead to discussion about the data itself being the problem, not the selling to Analytica.)
All of these sites are extremely heavily moderated, which is understandable, but saying that they are "anything goes" is false by any stretch of the imagination. Honestly before last year, Discord was the place to be, no matter what your topic was. One of my favorite places to hang out was a place called "Meth and Funamines," which doesn't sound pleasant at the surface, as it's a bunch of druggies. The major rule was "No sourcing," but nobody went there for sourcing, and rarely to discuss drugs. When people did discuss drugs, it was similar to /r/drugnerds. It was just a community of mostly chill people, posting art, poetry, supporting one another be it mental illness or otherwise. No matter who you were, you could come to that server and find a friend in a time of need.
It was wrapped up in the ban of alt-right and other 'hate' discords early this year. Other than discussing drugs, I never saw a single bad thing come from that discord.
These days, I don't know where anyone can go to be free. Self-hosted options obviously, but that is not the answer. Self-hosted services don't have the accessibility or open-ness that sites like Reddit and services like Discord provide.
I wish Discord would provide self-hosted servers and just handled keeping them on a server list. It just sucks.
Also man, that second point really hits home. I've had a total of 8 'friends' over the past 10 or more years. Of that, I would consider two of them to be close, intimate friends. And they're both located hundreds of miles from me. One of them is NC with me, as we both accentuate the depressive nature of one another.
The only really rewarding thing I experience is video games, because I enjoy competition, and regularly hold top positions over others. It's also the major distraction from depressive thoughts I have. I also have hallucinations / extreme paranoia when away from a computer for too long.
The only real release from my depression I feel is being free enough to feel what I please at any time, which is impossible, or to achieve the un-achievable.
To put it into a very high-level form, I enjoy learning about anything under the sun, so much so that I wish I could solely dedicate my life to it. However the nature of our world leads to complications: money, family, jobs, etc. That's just something that you have to expect. These things are manageable. What chance within those constraints of society, humanity, and more can you expect to discover or create something that transcends history, to be remembered forever? What about affecting the world in a positive way enough to affect the coming generations into a mindset where knowledge comes first, with no border to access it, with the same plan to better the universe?
Such things aren't possible. No single human can have such an effect on the world. So personally I have to make a choice to attempt the impossible every day, trying to work on projects that might some day better our existence, or just give up.
I feel a good cutoff age for me is 29. If I don't like the direction my life is going by then, I'll probably take steps to make it not exist, or I'll continue.
I don't want to push my views on anyone, and would urge anyone that has the same ideas as me or has felt this way before to seek some form of treatment. It does help, and can get you out of a slump.
I've lost friends, family, jobs and more due to the way that I feel. I've spent days not eating or drinking laying in bed crying, waiting for it to end. If you think you need to seek help, do so.
Speaking from experience, I can rarely closely associate with people. In the span of 10 years, from a friend perspective, I've kept approximately 8 people around. None of them are from my geographic region, either. If I lived in a large area, it might be different. All of my friends are 'online' friends. We rarely stray from our group of people either, and we all are quite similar. (It's also probably worth mentioning, solely for interests sake, that we all have some form of diagnosed mental illness, which I find quite interesting.)
The prior thought process was accompanied with self-destructive methods. Abandoning friends, work, hobbies, etc. My real emotional escape has always been video games. They keep my thoughts from wandering, and I pour everything in to them. I believe my use of them in that way accompanies my skill at them. (Top 10 PUBG 2 seasons ago, A+ ESEA, Global Elite in CS, top 50 crusader D3 S13, etc.) My accomplishments in video games really help my suicidal tendencies, but they also hamper them. My depression seems to sway between a desire for success, freedom, skill, and a general over-arching hate of the meaningless-ness of existence. On a downswing it can depress me, on an upswing it can inspire me. I don't know enough about the topic from a professional perspective to determine how common that is for people.
I understand that things such as "social prescribing" may help some, but it is detrimental to me. I have no desire to be forced around a group of people that I have no known common interests, and may have none.
I feel that reading the majority of discussions to treat depression fall short in my case, as a lot of them involve other people or outdoor activity. My general disregard for other people and existence as a whole tends to be an issue.
I'm sure this can help some, but it seems to just be what most people understand already.