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After two burnouts nowadays if insomnia sets in I just turn the alarm off, accept that it is one of those nights and relax. If that won't work due to racy thoughts I just get up and do something. The next day is immediately cleared from appointments, duties, plans and exercise. Good sleep is priority 1 over work, exercise and even food. I'd rather be unemployed than being a walking zombie ever again.

some-> (threading macro) and the fact that you can put an s-expression _anywhere_, these two language fundamental features alone put lisps way above c-style languages. You can laugh and continue sipping your espresso while reading the JS community bicker about syntax changes and what you are allowed to type.

for a LISP using meditation practicing hacker reading this is incredible, the same insights written down by someone else.

> You do not feel physical sensation, consciously or subconsciously, without an accompanying thought or emotion. this is true. When really connected with your body, mind and emotion you see these are interlinked. The body follows thought and emotion, suppressed emotions are kept in the body. Your body feels emotion before you consciously recognize it.

On top of all that is going on in traffic you would add interpreting one more abstracted symbol to your cognitive load? The situation can change in milliseconds during driving, you can never ever be entirely sure nothing unexpected could happen.

Personally having tried Tesla AP1 iit was painfully clear I can never fully trust any assisted driving aid, they can fail at any point and I need to be ready to take over immediately. Particularly having to wrestle the steering wheel from AP1 as it slightly resists is reason enough to stop using it.

In Finland this is the only way to get anybody even slightly competent to get something done.

it is the knowing and experience of no self / anatta. You've been told this and nothing compares to experiencing it as a certainty and truth. That the you you thought you were is not real and never was. Suddenly there is an existential crisis. If I am not real then what is the point? Serious anxiety and horror from this but it passes as a new reality asserts itself. The ego still exists but you're no longer trapped all in there and can see it separate from that which is aware.

- what do you like doing?

- how are you as a person, a coworker

- are you able to ask for help?

- can you hold a conversation?

- how do you learn?

- describe a failure in your career and how it went from there

all this is for the interviewer and the interviewee to get to know each other each other and see if the candidate is a good fit for the company culture and values. If the recruitment lets in a narcissist or toxic person it will poison the well.

re-frame is the uncrowned king of web dev at the moment, there is nothing like it out there

as a recent burnout recoveree, it is possible at this point you have already lost a significant portion of your reserves and capacity to recover. You need to make immediate changes which allow you to recover energy. Burnout recovery is painful and you do not come out the same person.

If you are having a hard time sleeping or have unexplainable pains and aches this is your wake up call to act, your body WILL stop you at some point.

How is Common Lisp for SPA development? I tried to look for anything on either Racket or CL side and pretty much a dead wasteland on that front.

I've used re-frame ClojureScript for a few years now but would like to dip my toes in CL, just can't seem to get a head start. Maybe trying CL on the backend first, but even there Clojure dominates..

As someone who used re-natal previously I'm looking forward to trying this out!

exactly the same. Just one nights poor sleep and the overcompensation of the mind makes life a living hell. Anxiety, depression and feeling like in a haze is absolute torture.

After three weeks of writing Javascript I don't understand how people bare with writing so damn much of it. I need to rest my hands from all the damn typing and reorganizing parentheses and braces, moving functions and typing return all the damn time.

And full of missing return statements and corner cases. if it only were possible to put an expression anywhere you want :(

always mapv when doing I/O on the backend and always extra vec when returning sequences in the frontend

I've had fallen arches since a kid and was told I can never be a runner and I'll have a tough time with my feet.

Nowadays I run mountain ultra marathons and my feet are fine, my flat arches give me no trouble at all.

Fallen arches are not a problem.

I've come to the realization the key difference is working code needs to be an order of magnitude more robust than hobby projects. There is a major difference in energy needed to get there. Spending this energy costs and there comes a point where programming becomes taxing instead of recharging.

Take care of your recovery, have outside interests to programming and realize as you age your ability to recover slows down even more, but your abilities also change. Wisdom accumulated along the way make you able to use your energy wisely.

say anything to another person starting with "you .... " will immediately bring up defenses and come off as argumentative and passive aggressive and all kinds of boundary violations going on there. There is no harm in saying what you feel: "I feel bad about the way we talked last time"

Unless I read this the wrong way, are you being addressed like this by someone?

I'm already quite interested in resizing wide images to square images for Convolutional Neural Networks training

This here is why estimation of tasks (in software) is IMHO futile hand waving. There is always unknown unknowns, snags and hangups which may surprise everyone.

Everybody who actually creates or makes something can agree that that stuff is hard, really hard but oh so rewarding!

Chemical imbalance theory still disproven

Chevrolet Volt since 2009 is like this.

Divorce, second breakup from a BPD person, meditation, tantra, yoga and ultra running. There are moments in ultra running and tantra that transcend everything, a glimpse of enlightenment and the simplicity of life that make you get through anything life throws at you.

maintainability is irrelevant if the whole site can be regenerated in seconds with the new changes required.

I'm okay with this though. Creating websites is tedious and is most analogous to cranking a handle as it is a learnable skill. After a while it is clear it is just banging characters and seeing what changed on the screen this time.

Bear in mind I'm only talking about implementing the layout, colors, texts and responsiveness. Any dynamic functionality such as forms, buttons, dialogs, integrations and talking to servers is still potentially very complex and difficult taking.

Have you ever wondered why in our society when people stop taking their medications a significant portion of the population will go mad?

The crux of the problem here is trying to conform to some ideal of what a good person is and using drugs to get there. Then you will be happy and all is good in life. Until something else comes along and back to square one again.

They might have been burned out. At the stage before your body prevents you from getting physically to work your work output takes a very serious nose dive.

The new rMBP is about five hours if you don't touch it at all. under 4 hours if used for working. It is a step down from my previous 2012 model which is a damn shame.

all the words from scrum: Standups, sprint, dailies, retrospectives, epics, tasks..

The kids will only learn that it's okay to sacrifice yourself as well. They will learn to do the same and the cycle continues.

If she really wants her kids to have a better life she should start from herself.

Thank you for educating the discussion on what meditation is and isn't. Western culture/medicine seems to have fixated on meditation being only mindfulness which is just one facet of the journey inward.