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I’m very confused. I don’t think I’m different than this.
I find this framing useful: https://neuroqueer.com/neuroqueer-an-introduction/
This idea that modular code matters is bullshit.
Enterprise fizz buzz or spaghetti nightmare.
Learning things isn’t the point, talent is.
Speaking as someone who used to think this stuff mattered, then realized they’d just been wasting their life, instead of isomorphically rearranging thinking patterns on the deck of the trendtanic.
I'd recommend avoiding talkspace.
And for the love of god, if a therapist isn't working for you within 3 sessions, For fucks sake don't "stick it out".
You're worth it. Get the help you deserve, not what the system is willing to give you on it's first try.
There's nothing worse than a therapist that you know isn't listening to you, and you keep going, because your actual problem is that you can't tell the difference between what's your fault and what's not.
And they never let you or helped you get there.
And you could see it. And you knew that was your fault.
So you didn't say anything.
And besides, you were a rich tech bro, he was employed on a gig platform. He's more economically dependent, ergo he deserves help, ergo I'll stick with him and try to be an easy client.
This is the product of a diseased mind that can't fucking stand up for itself.
So. Fuck TalkSpace.
And whoever reads this. Yes. Find someone else. It's not your responsibility to stick with a therapist that isn't working for you.
If you've gone through five therapists, maybe you're the problem, I don't know. Then open that box.
But you have _my_ permission, to go through five therapists before asking yourself that question.
You also have my permission to ignore that, and believe that you can go through any number of therapists.
I affirm your right to choose.
Anyway. This moment is a _very_ direct test of this question. Answering it, or more carefully, your emotional reaction on reading this, will expose some of your absolutes.
Either humans have this right or don't.
I wish I’d left.
It can get bad if you stay. Take everything.
TCP.
But with respect to the shared net. The experience that makes a dent in the fabric of reality as shared or known by all, personalizes the universe to a subdomain.
Once I had the words. Now that’s gone too.
I once believed in real relationships.
They’re just ideas running through meat.