> I feel so angry with and ashamed of my own country in a way I cannot even find words for.

I feel so angry and ashamed for what the EU bureaucrats and politicians have done to the EU.

Many people do feel like me. I'm not german but I know that half of that region didn't suddenly wake up "neo-nazis": they're people who are fed up with what the politicians have done to their countries.

You cannot change abruptly systems / countries / cultures by flooding them massively with migrants from different cultures by the tens of millions and expect the entirety of the population to, like you, beg for more.