I'm not going to pay to turn my phone on when I'm preparing for emigration.
It's been FOUR years. I can show you photos of my wounds, and photos of the laptop that was smashed. This is an economic issue, not a psychological issue.
Lack of reoccuring income, paired with years of only one job offer at a time after interviews masquarading as free consulting sessions.
What I need is a job, and a place to spend money from my job on rent.
(Right now, the only "drug" I'm using is caffeine... in the past, a small bit, then cannabis in the evening helped, but... Mike Folmer's people harassed me. You know who that is, if you're from PA.)
Are you willing to help with these things, now that I've explained how I tried the typical options?