Remember however, it is all echo chamber. That is what people freak out about on psychedelics, or when a doomed hypocrisy runs it’s full course (mid life crises, challenging existential epiphanies, etc.)
You’re just missing that everyone else struggles with their own sooner or later (normalcy is a fraud.) Zen and the art of Motorcycle Maintenance anyone?
This is the nature of the mind, and the interface with the world it composes.
One might consider the mind and consciousness to be exactly that, an introspective echo chamber, and these entities of thought you’ve found influential are kinds of memes.
Memetic thoughts are viral information which infect and take on their own forms, eventually influencing the host and propagating themselves!
In ancient times people who come to such realizations became ascetics (sic., Siddhartha, or even Jesus, or the quarter billion who followed their trend) or alcoholics, or maybe philosophers (Rumi?)
Here are some witty self inoculations I came up with in my own time:
- undeceive the self. In a Universe governed by entropy, ignorance and confusion is the natural state of mind.
- Happiness is not the ultimate pursuit for the wayward person, fulfillment is. Sometimes one must sacrifice happiness to gain fulfillment.
- know that the present state of humanity is not its highest form. Before we were all driven useless or insane by modernity (something to do with delegating this personal responsibility that may only be resolved on one’s own), there are so many stories and accounts of greatness among us scattered throughout history. They must be found out! Follow the coattails of some notable historian or three. Learn more about how humans were before everything was spoken for. Know more about what you are than what you’ve come to assume!
Good luck!