It sounds like you're saying that life is permanently less interesting. I'm sorry that happened to you. This is not a side effect that I am aware of. Are you sure that this came from the drug?
Known side effects are temporary depression (among others). 5-HTP may help ameliorate it.
I have benzos for anxiety. And they really make an exciting social event so much brighter and clearer. I’m so comfortable in my own skin, I can just be around absolute strangers.
It’s hard to compare to those highs. My daily live comparatively dull. But I’ve accepted the tradeful because the other things that come with mania are not worth it.
Occasionally, I get a glimpse of what I had. I should walk away, but I don’t. And pay for it later.
I don’t particularly like Benzos but when I need them, I really need them.
It took a lot of prodding and nagging from professionals, friends, and to get me to use them at all. :)
That makes sense, but GP wrote "once you've done it, everything becomes dull without it". I interpreted that to mean it happened after the first time.
It's kind of like going to a movie or a concert that I enjoy, but at the end it's nice to return. If the high continued I'd feel miserably unhappy despite the artificial chemical boost.