I hear you. That’s why I was hoping someone who had crossed over from atheism to theism would be able to provide insights.

Even dipping my toes slightly, I am finding that I need to have a strong faith in an omnipresent/omnipotent being. This is problematic.

I wanted to approach it as an intellectual/philosophical/man made construct, but the pieces are not fitting for a coherent narrative. I think I can even filter some religious dogma.

If I can find a rational reason for the possibility of an omnipresent/omnipotent/omniscient being(proof not required), then it would be easy to surrender. It is not an egoic thing. I don’t want to subscribe to imaginary constructs.

That’s where I am today. Or at least, this afternoon.