There's truth, and there's emotionally comforting. Which do you want? I agree with raptoraver, that truth is what you should seek.

I suggest reading "He Is There And He Is Not Silent" by Francis Schaeffer. He argues that what is really there is also what we really need as humans - a God who actually exists, not just as an idea or a philosophical construct, but one who is really there. And this God is Someone, not just Something, so our human aspirations for being persons, not just machines, have a basis in what actually exists.

But don't stop there. Don't stop with knowing the truth as an intellectual construct. That's not what you really need. You need faith, not just knowledge. You need truth rather than lies or wishful thinking, but then you need faith in that truth.

("You" in this post is addressed to jelliclesfarm, even though I'm directly replying to raptoraver.)