I am fully aware that I still have lots of room for improvement. I realise that every December when I reflect on myself and see how much I have improved throughout the year.

To avoid annoying you too much, I will now use a spell checker, since English is not my mother tongue. But enough about me.

It looks like you are going through a rough time right now. Do you want to talk about it?

You've already posted more than one comment that breaks the site guidelines: https://news.ycombinator.com/newsguidelines.html. Would you mind reviewing them, and HN in the intended spirit?