I was able to use a half dozen or so psychs, dissos and MDMA to address issues the medical establishment can't/won't. I have official diagnosis of PTSD, GAD, Major Depression, ADHD and OCD. I was in a very, very bad accident as a child. While, I am "ok" with it in the Freudian sense, It just left me anxious all the time.

These things made dramatic changes to my personality, I was weak, shy, reserved. I'm now confident, self-actualized, empathetic. But they also did trigger DID which had been dormant for a decade. For me, this was actually a good thing. I made peace with those parts of me and I can call upon them when needed.

You kind of hit a wall with self-growth-- You're going to realize a lot of your friendships and relationships are unhealthy. You'll need to remove these unhealthy things. My employer was massively abusive (had to end that), and my wife, while not intentional puts massive amounts of stress on me due to some issues she doesn't care to work on.

People who refuse to grow, or want to keep treating you negatively will label your behavior crazy, and express concern for you when in reality they want to continue the negative patterns you had previously participated in.

I've also gotten to some really scary places mentally, with meditation and dissos achieved brief glimpses of "enlightenment". Which is far less interesting than it sounds. Enlightenment is actually rather lonely. Imagine your mind expanding into an infinite space, an infinite, empty space.

The hardest part has actually been my family. They don't recognize me because, for the first time in their lives, I am not completely, utterly miserable.