whyso

I have had hard time identifying non-materialistic ambitions. My mind has always been able to short circuit the ideas, similar to the ones you mentioned, as a way to make more money. Effectively turning them into greed, which is supposed to be bad. But I think I have been making wrong conclusions. As mentioned in other comments, developing a stronger feeling towards non-self pain points and retraining my mind would probably be the way to go.

Most of my beliefs are for self. Mostly because of the idea that each of us is a random instance, executing for optimizing random functions. Some are aware of the functions, and for some it is a black box. This breaks the boundaries between right and wrong etc in my mind and so on. But also diminishes the idea of exposing these beliefs and doing something with them seems meaningless.

I have come across a lot of folks in my life who have comfortable lives, by virtue of working hard for it or being born into it, and too have observed that they fall into a slump, such that a major shift to that lifestyle can bring them down to their knees. I am, frankly, scared of landing in a similar situation. I do try to keep myself sharp by reading/trying out things here and there, but since I don't apply them to a meaningful extent, I have hard time trusting these.

As far as sharing the stuff I know is concerned, I have held an opinion that I don't have any new knowledge. Most of what I know has been derived from works of others, and all of that is already available out there. So I have felt that duplicating that information just increases entropy without any meaningful gain to anyone. That is why I haven't made an effort in that direction.

I might sound like a bad human saying this, but I think I have been largely apathetic about the world. I do think about the worldly issues, usually going into a zone such that I am unable to sleep at night, but I don't think I have ever taken a step to contribute to it meaningfully. I will take up your suggestion and see if I can start putting my skills to use in that direction.