unhappyddev

Yeah that might be a good term for it.

We have a lot of "yes men", including direct managers, who are quick to agree to any deadline and feature no matter what. I feel like I always have to be the bad guy, and it's draining.

"Agile", wildly unrealistic deadlines, chronic optimism, prioritizing marketing fluff and shiny features over maintenance and user experience, weird linkedin-corporate-speak on slack, constantly worrying about performance and mediocre code I've written under pressure, it goes on.

I'm trying to put less pressure on myself and care less, but when it's 9 to 5 all week...you kind of have to live it. I barely have any energy after work to do things I enjoy. By the time I've started to relax and forget about work during the weekend, it's already Sunday night.

Never said I was entitled to constant happiness or that I don't understand the harsh reality. I've worked tons of odd-jobs over the years in lots of different fields.

Kinda wishing I could delete this now, it was mostly doom posting since I'm dreading the upcoming sprint. I'm just deeply unsatisfied and struggling to come to terms with doing this grind for decades. I probably need professional help.