tossandflip

I guess the hard part of this question is deciding what is realistic, and what isn't.

If I have to answer within the realm of realistic, then my answer is - honestly I don't know.

I want to enjoy my life. When I'm working I want to feel excited and invested. When I'm not working I want to feel like my time is well spent.

The issue really is, I don't know what I need to do to feel this way. I have a great job, pays well, etc. Comfort is definitely not the issue. I travel occasionally, but that's not sufficient. Life just feels so monotonous and boring but doesn't seem to bother anyone else.

I really wish this could work as I absolutely agree it would put some spring back in my step and might even make a huge difference in my quality of life.

Unfortunately, I just have a feeling this would destroy our relationship. Maybe that is an indication of a weak relationship, I'm not sure. We've been together for 10 years.

EDIT:

I should clarify after reading up in more detail on what a "Hall Pass" is.

My wife and I could talk in pure hypotheticals about romance with famous people. That is fine. But actually pursuing it is a different story.

I think the idea of pursuing other romantic options is, of course, really exciting and motivating... but I'm interested in options that don't destroy my relationship which I have worked hard to maintain, and value immensely.