tiefquart

Damn, are you me? I quit my job in IT consulting some years ago and switched to a governement QC posiion. Still, I struggle and with covid and remote working even more.

I often ask myself what`s wrong with me, but I can definately say my mental health is more and more fucked up since I joined the workforce. I always had my fears and insecuriies, but that 9 to 5 lifestyle really pushes me to the edge.

Maybe it really is the wrong job after all.

A diverse portfolio is what most people would suggest, I guess. If I had your money, I'd be looking to buy something like a house or land.

Also I am amazed by that salary at such a young age (and a bit jelly). Good job!

I feel that. I'm quite open and creative but writing poems and bringing 10 different music instruments to a novice+ level won't pay my bills.

So I studied some STEM and worked in a field that interests me. But working in consulting brought me to a burnout in just under 2 years. I quit and now have a chill desk job, but even now - I often can't motivate myself and I see no point in sitting 8 hours at a desk, when I can work in 2 bursts of 30mins a day and get all the things done that a urgent.

So what then? I google stuff, look at my phone and chat with the one nice guy at work. Apart from social communication, all that time feels so WASTED.

And then at home you crave to go online and sit at your desk again, but this time it's a gaming desk. So because it's your hobby its cool - ?. No, honestly it drains your energy as well because it's no contrast to your work setting.

Fuck I need a cabin in the woods with a garden and a 15 hour remote job, I guess.