Because in the 5 years I've been looking, I've failed to find it?
If you know a better place - do share.
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If you know a better place - do share.
And making a pivot: absolutely. I'd like to get in touch with what I believe in or am passionate about first rather than just jump, but may have to! Having a wife and starting a family in the next couple of years complicates things more than some other commenters, but we are discussing it already. Just got to do something.
Thanks for your reply - I've saved your email address for the future :)
I've been a successful consultant, though that's tailed off the last 5 years.
A lot of what's in the other thread [1] rings very true. I'm massively torn in all directions, learn for the sake of learning and never have any ideas with whatI want to do with what I learn.
HOWEVER... the big difference, and one I have struggled with for years, but more so recently is... "why bother?" to do anything. Money no longer motivates. I don't believe in technological progress, I want the world to be different and can't accept it as it is. I want people to be nice to each other, in a utopian way that thinks I can make them happy and doesn't allow for their emotions.. I can't say the thought of anything in the world excites me.
I'm overwhelmed by the volume of information, but even more so by the volume of opinions. Take even a simple long-running one, what to believe religiously. I can hear one side, then the other, then another... and each in turn (usually) makes sense. There's not enough info to say one is right, but which is right?? Because each believes their point is right, and yet if I held a different position all would criticise me. I can't resolve that dichotomy.
Am I burned out like this chap talks about? https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=8976685
Or is it something deeper like Borderline Personality Disorder?
I turned 30 this year, and spending my days wishing I knew what to do with meaning wasn't what I expected to do.