I have math anxiety. I've been bad at math since I was a child. Mainly because I was hyper and had short attention span and neither of my parents were good at math, nor did we have money to get a tutor so my basic mathematical foundation has always been weak.
I'm 31 years old now with my BA in Computer Information Systems and I still don't know all of my multiplication problems from 1's to 12's, and have difficulty solving basic algebra problems.
I've always stated that I hated math, and that schools are always forcing students to learn certain types of math just to pass/graduate. Instead I think the schools should focus on math that the students can immediately start applying to their daily lives and jobs; no child working at a fast-food chain is going to even try to apply calculus to their job.
My issue is that not everyone learns or interprets the language the same. Some like myself take longer to process a problem to form a solution, but in school you're on a timed schedule so people like me struggle.
Also, some teachers only teach the way they learned and understood the language and don't really care or think that other students may learn from different ways/perspectives.
I know I can learn any type of math, I just need it explained and demonstrated to me in simple english that even a 5th grader could understand and not with college words that I need a dictionary to comprehend.
I secretly deep down want to be great at math and to learn and master, algebra, trigonometry, geometry, calculus, etc. so that I feel competent in the computer industry to solve basic and more advanced problems. But instead, I am reclusive and feel dumb and that I will never be great at any type of math discipline.