... anyway, I'd like to add to your comment about people killing themselves because they have mental health issues. Please note this isn't some attack on you and it isn't aimed solely at you it just happens that your comment raised was relevant.
It strikes me as odd(not really) that people think that just because you would dare do such a think that you must be mentally ill or be on drugs etc. That is sometimes not the case. I'd describe myself as generally happy and a nice person to be around(this is what I've actually been told) but to be honest I don't want to be here, I never have and can't wait to go. It's possibly hard for you and most people to understand but when you feel out of place often you just want to leave. To give you some context; I don't live luxurious life and I actually don't want one I often give-away most of the extra money I have but I still live comfortably. I love my job and the people I work with. I'm not the greatest communicator - it's not really a problem I just don't like interacting with people (I prefer to listen and observe). Yet I've always had close friends and is always popular with everyone everywhere I go(numerous schools, university, work).
By now you probably are guessing that the way I'd like the world to be (simple, happy and loving, etc.) isn't the way the world is, and that's very much the reason I don't want to be here. As I said I just don't feel like I belong here and I don't want to be here, if it were not for the fact that people would be hurt I'd be gone a long time ago.
In the past I've talked about my views of life in a discussion similar to this, I asked if that means I also and I also had a mental illness that was causing me to think like this and I was told that yes I do. But noone can tell me how or why that answer is a 'yes'.
Perhaps you can, provide a reason for a yes or no nswer, perhaps not but I'll ask away and see what happens.
With the facts given above, is it not possible that I'm just one of those people that see life differently from the norm. Do I have a mental illness? can you give a reason why you think I do(or don't)?