Everything except this in your plan is doable:
>4. Cruise at current job
It's such a chaotic shit show... more people are leaving in the next few weeks and it's going to very negatively affect me.
>I find that when you think you have the weight of the world on your shoulders, super straightforward tasks seem insurmountable.
It feels unsurmountable because I have no viable path to success or resolution right now. Whenever a new job lead or something else comes up it is an instant uplift of spirits. If only we could schedule success.
I really appreciate your simplifying of things and reminder of the things unrelated to programming that are essential to success.