I really didn't expect so my replies from my half drunken post! Thank you for all the kind advise.
A lot of people seem to be pointing out that I'm still young and that there are lots people in similar positions to me who have been failing for a long time.
I know I'm still young, and I know it's not easy to build a successful startup, but I think that's missing the point. I am still relatively young, but I won't be as young in 10 years. And what if I keep failing for another 10 years? Or even another 10 after that? Do I really want to spend 20, or 30, years of my life in a job I don't enjoy that much for a dream that may never happen?
Don't get me wrong. All I really want from life is to build something I'm proud of. I don't care much for cars, houses and holidays. They're nice, but I'd give up any chance of having them if I could build something that fills me with passion everyday I wake up. It's just, I can't guarantee that the time I put into having those things will actually get me anywhere. I mean, I've already gambled 10 years unsuccessfully so far.
I really relate to what nacrikt said:
> I'm thinking about leaving tech, as a profession, because professionally it turns everything I love into a thing to loath. And going back to the slower pace of living, without fear of failure or success, just living intentionally and taking every day and every moment for what it is.
After 10 years of nothing, I feel like cutting my loses and living life a little slower for a while might not be so bad.