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Nagel wrote a controversial book towards the end of his life called 'Mind and Cosmos: Why the Materialist Neo-Darwinian Conception of Nature is Almost Certainly False' where he argues that this very subjectivity cannot be fit into any current materialist theory. I tend to agree with this view--reducing subjectivity to a metaphenomena of complexity seems to be a completely hollow definition. Why does it exist?
My dissertation dealt with robot navigation so I dug up an aeronautical chart and a 'flight computer' (circular slide rule) to motivate dead reckoning. The breaks were mostly pictures from conferences/trips where I presented my work. Both of these additions seemed to be quite well received based on some (somewhat impartial) feedback :).
One suggestion I'm still not completely sold on is to avoid saying 'thank you' at the very end. Ending on a visual that summarizes the work makes sense, but avoiding thanking the audience so as to not appear too deferential seems to me to be a stretch--isn't this just a simple courtesy? Wilson makes the analogy to political speeches which almost always end in some form of 'God bless America!', but I struggle to see an analogous sign-off that could be used in more academic settings.
I am compelled by the notion of free will described by Schopenhauer (expanding on Kant). Namely, that 'one can do as he wills but not will as he wills'. Lived experience leads us to infer an indeterminate/inseparable energy/force/Will that we perceive with our senses and organize through the concepts of time/space/causality. However, we, being on the 'inside' of one particular object, are in a peculiar state: we are free to accept or reject this Will.
If I ask you to think of a number between 0 and 10, a number may pop up in your head (seemingly out of nowhere, though clearly through some process affected by genetics/neurochemistry). Despite this, you (whatever 'you' is) are still free to accept or reject this proposition.
In this sense, people can still be punished for accepting propositions of murder in some coherent way. You are affected by, but not the sum total of, your genetics and neurochemistry. Nevertheless, the latter might play a large role that we shouldn't discount.
[1] https://journals.plos.org/ploscompbiol/article?id=10.1371/jo...
Perhaps a more positive experience might be one in which you still feel distinct but nevertheless intimately connected with everything. I've done some psilocybin, but never reached anything close to 'ego-death.' I am curious to hear other people's thoughts on how these ego-less experiences make one at peace, and not in complete existential horror (I suppose if there is no ego, there is nothing to 'feel' the horror?).
Looking back, the feeling of being 'trapped' was somewhat reminiscent of my experience of 'sleep paralysis' (and also occurred as I was falling asleep) though on an ineffably more terrifying scale. I'm not sure if other people who've experienced bad trips on weed (that are hallucinogenic in nature) have felt something similar.
When I awoke the next day, I suddenly had the distinct realization that the existence of other living beings and their eventual death (as my own) was an immense gift. Eternal existence as some monistic 'God' suddenly appeared to be the ultimate hell.
In the book, Pollan details the recent renaissance in clinical psychedelic research to treat depression and help terminally-ill patients. The hope is that the 'noetic quality' of psychedelic trips--a term coined by William James in the context of religious experiences--can help pierce through the defences of one's ego. This 'noetic quality' refers to the perception that a psychedelic trip feels like 'total reality'; a series of 'revealed truths' rather than drug-induced illusions. This bears resemblance to revelatory experiences in religious contexts and the two are intimately tied in many Shamanic practices.
By inducing a long-lasting feeling of transcendence, researchers hope that psilocybin et al. can act as a more direct way to short-circuit destructive patterns of thought and help one come to terms with death (as opposed to, or in conjunction with, traditional therapy).
Pollan writes that in controlled settings with a trained guide, 'bad trips' are quite rare, though they can occur.
[1] https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/36613747-how-to-change-y....