Thank you for your kind comment and help, i appreciate it, most of the comments here and the e-mails i got made me consider somewhere else, when i posted this post i only saw California in my head even though i don't mind going elsewhere at all.
I didn't expect this to be #1 post this is kind of you people, I would love to thank everyone who posted and is posting midway replying to comments with "Thank you" i found out i'd be spamming the comments in here, so this is a huge THANK YOU to everyone who wrote and will write.
I've tried e-mailing you but it's not working would you please send me an e-mail to life.will.get.better.2016@gmail.com and i will reply? thank you a lot.