burnedout008

Interesting. Are you suggesting this because you think doing something physical/tangible would be therapeutic and help me have more meaningful relationships with local community ?

I hear you. My issue is that I don't know what is fun to me anymore. I have no hobbies, no real friends (most people I would call Friends are all about kids or work, no real personal connection). I do love my wife and kids and they are very dear to me but I feel like I don't live for myself anymore. hard to explain.

Glad to hear that. I am definitely tempted to do this but worry about employees well being and if I will be able to sell it with the terms I would prefer.

I do have a team but business is not completely self sustainable without me yet. Perhaps that is one area I can look into as well and spend a bit less time on it than the 60-70 hour weeks. Thx for your suggestion.

Good point. I am too busy chasing that "imaginary future" where I am just not enjoying the present anymore even though I am so privileged to be in the position that I am in already. Thank you for that perspective. I am going to really think hard on how to make the present better.

Thx for sharing. How do you feel now ?

"Re-evaluate your life. What makes you happy?"

Pretty much what I have been thinking about for past few weeks. I thought I was very happy with everything I wanted and suddenly it doesn't feel like it. I dont know where things went wrong. Only thing I can think of is the constant pressure to do better than before which is getting to me I suppose. I forgot about what really matters to me personally.

"You probably lack real friends, you did not made or maintained, in your fight alone to reach your business goals."

This is so true for me. All these years, I haven't truly felt that I have any friends left that I can truly talk to. Got a couple from college but mostly feels superficial now as it is all about kids or work when we talk or meet.

I guess I would look into therapy more. I did talk to someone but they basically were playing profesional friend like you said. So I stopped seeing them. I really appreciate your response. I have things to think about.

Thx for replying. I think that would be a bit harsh on her because honestly she has been very supportive overall on the things that I do. I don't think it is her. I think it is me. I just don't know what is wrong ?

"Who says that business has to always grow"

Yea that's what I am grappling with. I guess I am becoming the victim of FOMO and Social Media pressures of always doing better in business. For the 1st time in my entire life, I have lost clarity on what I want. It is not just about the money but the confusion is how far is enough ? I want to get to 10M in ARR but it is killing me.

Appreciate your response. How do I know it is clinical depression ? What type of professional can help with this ?