alexanderbergi

thank you for your response, I feel like I'm at a crossroads. I would love to make use of all the benefits of the M1 Mac but, I want to safely do my job without being hindered by obscure bugs or outdated software.

have you been able to do all your work on your Mac albeit with some workarounds or did you have to resort to a backup x64.

I feel like most of these issues will be resolved with another year, but I have to choose in a few months.

It's really scary reading those quotes, I will definitely have a look at the book.

I think a lot of times I am having fun, but when I do, I decide beforehand that I want to learn a certain thing and often times I don't finish what I wanted to finish. I'm not really working on self-improvement as a goal but, I went and looked at my life and what I wanted to see changed. Personal health is one of those and relieving frustration from my rapidly changing hobbies and interest is another.

I do program for a living as part of an internship currently. However, I want to try out the cybersecurity field and in an attempt to pursue that path I feel obligated to spend my free time working towards that path, but I can't seem to dose it, I commit to it 110% and burn out after 1-2 weeks. I think with most things I want a quick result, which I know I won't be able to get unless I pour everything I have into it.

I do share your last point, I often am enjoying myself while being invested in it, but the thing is I still enjoy it afterwards, I just can't seem to balance it with the other things I enjoy.

It's going downhill, Having trouble adjusting at my internship. It's in South East Asia and I'm from Europe. When we spoke on skype during the interview, I was under the impression that the startup company had a lot of structure and wanted to help me improve as a developer.

In the first 2 weeks, I did absolutely nothing and was encouraged to watch some react tutorials on youtube. I bugged them multiple times stating I wanted to work on something and feel productive. After 2 weeks, I was placed on a team working on a web app that was tied together by duct tape. With only 1 week of react knowledge, it wasn't hard to spot that this code was a mess, especially the styling side of things was painful. They tasked me with making the site responsive, for which they provided me with the mobile screens and said good luck. They use a mix of Styled components, css, scss and style attributes. 95% of the pages were written with hardcoded margins and paddings which led me to essentially rewrite almost all of the layout. It was mentally draining. Once I was finally finished with this the client wanted a rebranding and they essentially changed a lot of the styling and layout, so I was back to square one, luckily while making it responsive I stripped out a lot of double css rules and added variables to make it easier to work with some colours and margins etc.

On top of this scrum is only partly being used, so clients get free reign mid-sprint, a scrum board doesn't exist, story points aren't really discussed they are just guestimated by the Project manager and all tasks are listed as git issues with about a million different labels.

I'm now on a new team where I actually have an interesting project however, the specs keep changing. The senior developer didn't have faith in my implementation, which led to me implementing his idea only for him to realize I was right in the first place. There is no involvement and no one wants to pick up responsibility to the point where I also stopped caring, which I guess is what happened to everyone else here. Wages are low in this country but all the customers are in Europe so it is kind of starting to feel like I'm just really cheap labor for them.

It's just really draining, the traffic here is really bad which causes me to leave in the dark and get home in the dark. There are 2 and a half more months to go and I don't really see it getting better.

Please tell me not all internships are like this and things will get better. Also any tips are welcome, I might be naive or lack experience and I'm just seeing things the wrong way.

Im interning in south east asia as a western European. I do wanna give it a week, but if I want a chance to switch I have to be quick as my uni wont allow it later in the program. The thing is it looked like a structured internship when I applied and had my interview. I know things could be much different as I have had previous working experiences as a developer. I dont expect them to hold my hand all day, but having at a team member informed and able to help an intern set up a workstation and area so he can get started seems only logical not only from a helping an intern point but also as a i want to make money point. Right now I have done nothing and I really would rather do something. I asked them about it a few times. Now I work much better in a structured environment and I feel like this will be a very long internship if I dont start finding joy or value in something i know i love doing.