Perhaps I could make more sense to you by pointing out that I was diagnosed with Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder in 2004. My OCD was plainly apparent to everyone long before that but in 2004 I was diagnosed by a psychiatrist.

OCD is driven by anxiety; carrying out one's compulsive activities eases one's anxiety but does not eliminate it as that anxiety arises for reasons unrelated to one's compulsive behavior.

Other OCD people do stuff like straighten the fringes on their rugs or clean dirt that others cannot see.

I write.

That does have the benefit that it helps with my consultancy websites SEO and at times I can earn some coin from AdSense but it does have the disadvantage that everyone around me goes absolutely bananas if they try to read even a little bit of what I write.

I understand all too well that my writing makes me intolerable to many of those that I know in real life. Bonita compared my getting an idea for a new article or essay to an alcholic proudly announced he had scored a bottle of liquor.

I am able to learn a few things from my time with Bonita, maybe I can do better with some other lover someday.