Since I don't assume that everyone on the internet has a clinical diagnosis, I didn't read the question as a cry for help, but rather as a normal question relating to living a good life. Had I seen it as a cry for help, I would have recommended talking to a therapist, not just because that has worked for me but because my spouse is one and thus I've spent much of my adult life around clinical professionals who treat depression, anxiety, etc. day in and out. Those experiences are also why I trust my intuitions.

Anyway, my point probably wasn't clear enough. I am suggesting to work on things that are intrinsically important rather than extrinsically important. By this I mean, don't prioritize what you think other people think you should do and prioritize what you feel you must do because it makes you you.

As Socrates would say "γνῶθι σεαυτόν".