WHAT THE UNHOLY FLYING FUCK!?
How are you not dead? No actual personal relationships closer than coworker or acquaintance, other than possibly your parents? Near-total personal isolation? FOR 14 YEARS!?
That would have broken me in mere months.
Most rich people will break if they are forced to live in poverty. Most people take what they have for granted. Rarely realizing, how lucky they are.
I've gone through a long period (several years) of almost total loneliness, where my only regular contact was with my mom (and she has a brain disability from a stroke, rendering her mostly unable to respond other than "yes" and "no").
A lot of that isolation came from not feeling able to fit in, even with the friends I already had (who I drifted away from). I didn't have anybody at all to call up to hang out with, and nobody called me.
It wasn't 14 years, but I just want you to know you're not alone. I'm still pretty isolated (way more than is OK for most people---even a bit too isolated for myself), but it's not as bad as it was, it's totally bearable without causing me to be depressed. (In fact, being lonely does not cause depression. Depression causes being lonely, though.)
As somebody else said, the "forever alone"[1] type of person is probably actually WAY more common than people think. In fact, I find it a tiny bit comforting that you are out there.
[1] However, that concept is invalid. It isn't determined that a person will be forever alone unless they voluntarily choose to make it so and never make an effort to meet people or allow people to meet them.
And he would be right. It's serious, don't give up, it's very likely that something will work if you give yourself a chance to find it. But you have to look.
I'm a grown adult, C-level professional with ZERO real-world friends. And I've tried... but the connections haven't stuck. It's quite bothersome, and makes you question everything about yourself and why this outcome could possibly be true after a lifetime of having tried to maintain and improve connections with others.
I've adopted a more tolerant and accepting self-view with respect to this, and the pain level of being completely socially isolated is in the 20-30% range, but the pain of on-going disinterest on the part of others was quite high.. like 80-90%. So it's a bit of progress. But my point is: for those who haven't found their way to an operable level of acceptance, a "WTF!" response isn't kind or helpful or insightful.
There are many of us "ForeverAlone"-ers out there, and trust me... we're 10x more confused than you might profess to be.
a) You are being mean, with no reason. b) He is stronger than you.
What?