That's exactly her argument. She has dreamed of it since she was a little girl and she just could not accept the fact that maybe, just maybe, the dream was false.
Why can one sex indulge in their childhood fantasy but the other cannot? If a guy saves for a car he has always wanted, something he saw years ago as a teen or whatever he is said to be having a midlife crisis whereas buying a lump of carbon/gold is seen as a beautiful tradition?