I am almost sure that you don't have wife or kids. If you did, most of the stuff you listed will become redundant to you. I hear you though. Been there (brief period) while I was single.
But at the same time it was pretty much impossible to find a partner while living such a life. No one finds you attractive. Maybe good enough for one night, but not for a relationship.
People say you shouldn't rely on other people to provide you happiness. But a relationship would have added so so much to my life.