A bad day might have looked like this:
1. Get up at 11AM.
2. Eat for an hour while watching some Let's Play/V-Log or listening to some podcast.
3. Start reading blogs and learning which after an hour turns into reading bullshit that leaves my brain a day after.
4. Play guitar for two hours.
5. Play videogames for two hours. If lucky with people over skype (the tiniest amount of social interaction for the day)
6. Repeat the eat-watch-routine
7. Lift weights for an hour
8. Repeat the eat-watch-routine
9. Reddit/HN
10. Get bored by the general Reddit/HN and read the weird subreddits instead
11. Do what I call the horny-but-jerking-off-in-5-minutes-is-too-fast routine which I guess releases quite the potent mix of endorphines because I might end up sitting there for an hour with my pants open
12. If nothing good comes up I use my useless amount of private torrent tracker invites to find some porn I've never seen before (which becomes increasingly rare). If I'm too lazy to do that I just browse around and might come across some weird shit like Japanese women squirting milk on each others out of their ass (I guess that's pretty tame in comparison). Not that it matters, my mind is sometimes so numb, I could jerk off to a car accident
13. Lament for an hour where my life has gone while doing Yoga and stretching to bottle up some memories
14. Play a poker freeroll and lose
15. Refocus and write 20 lines of code for a project that I'll never finish in a hundred years
16. Throw a coin. Heads I shower, shave and promise myself tomorrow will be the day everything changes. Tails I contemplate suicide again.
17. Cry myself to sleep if bottled up memories come to light
At the end of the day I'm a better guitarist, one step closer to beeing jacked and one step closer to insanity. That must be the reason why some rockstars are complete lunatics.
Were you looking forward to something? How did you break the circle?
What did I do? To be honest, nothing. The only difference now is that I have a job and subtract those hours and I can fill the day with just the more meaningful pastimes on that list. No time left to squander.
I'm not much happier, but of course now I'm an accepted part of society, or is it rather that I'm now indifferent to society?
I was looking forward to things, but the things further away in the future felt so far away (and some still do) that procrastination build a wall around them. I always reached for immediate pleasure. Some of those pleasures are worth something (playing guitar, riding a bike, or as someone commented below just beeing at the beach), but of course worthless to society.
The more distant things I was looking forward to? Finding something I really enjoy doing for more than just a few hours, a real passion. Someone to share my time with. Love.
But as society dictates that you need to provide for yourself those things are unreachable as they either are impossible to reach if you commit to having a job due to having no time, or they are unreachable because you provide of no worth for a partner, or society in general. It even strained friendships even though it didn't affect those "friends" in any way I can imagine.
Heck, that's why its even a bit funny to me because now I'm "okay" in every way, but I'm still the same person. A women might fall in love with me, people accept my, my family accepts me, but the core of my personality is still the same. And because that is the truth I might end up the same if I ever had no job (or wouldn't need one). I guess getting rich (which won't happen but who knows) would be my downfall.
A friend who stayed in touch with me despite all this always said I had so much time to do whatever I wanted, yet I never done anything of value. And my answer to this is, time doesn't really matter. Willpower, passion, sacrifice, those things push you forward. The people who achieve the most don't have 32 hour days. They don't need them because they don't waste a minute.
But at the same time it was pretty much impossible to find a partner while living such a life. No one finds you attractive. Maybe good enough for one night, but not for a relationship.
People say you shouldn't rely on other people to provide you happiness. But a relationship would have added so so much to my life.
1. Spend time with my family and friends as much as I can.
2. Travel around the world (with family/friends again)
3. Teach for free whatever I can.
4. Get really good at few of the things: Guitar, Martial Arts, handyman at my house etc.
Once that faucet dried up after a Google reranking I started working again (still for myself), then got married, had kids, etc. Now I always have tons to do, am upbeat 99% of the time, and doing better than ever! I've learnt working and making money in exchange for what I do is a core part of what keeps me happy and sane.
If a basic income were available and high enough in my 20s, I'd have stayed on it, probably remained single forever, and lived a hikikomori-esque lifestyle.. which is why I remain a little skeptical of some basic income ideas despite appreciating the idea. Would all people be like me? No. But I think a higher basic income for everyone who holds down a job is a far better idea and we already have something mildly like that in the UK.
1) Volunteer. This is the only thing in my list that I know I will do for certain. I don't want to become a sloth, and doing so would seem like a crime against humanity when I have so much to offer. I genuinely like helping people. It's also a great way to meet interesting people. While it's not really a reason, I also find that I'm more of a producer than a consumer.
2) Travel. Nothing too extravagant. I'll still be watching my penny bank so I don't cause myself to have to go back to work for an income.
3) Backpacking. It's important to me to be able to connect with nature sometimes.
4) Write two novels that I already have ideas for.
5) Write essays on the human condition.
I'll be embarking for something similar, but for about a year.
I wish you all the best, and would love to hear what you have to say about humanity.
I would spend a lot more time with my wife and daughter even in the small things such as taking my girl to school and picking her up.
I would spend more time being aware, walking and meditating.
I would then spend a huge chunk of time giving somehow. I have a few projects me and my wife are starting in this area such as running a free course for new parents on how to resuscitate babies, top 5 risks for new borns etc
And travel!
I can't speak for others but its incredibly tough for me to not proactively work on something I enjoy, especially once you have develop the habit of getting use to working a lot.
If I didn't have to work because of a basic income guarantee I'd probably still work. It would feel different to me, plus a basic income guarantee I doubt will be financial boon in a sense that you could do something other than working.
I think workers work. The satisfaction is in achievement of worth, or at least in the endeavor.
There are many things I enjoy more than coding, but coding is sometimes fun, and does pay the bills.