I don't mean to offend you, nor was it my intention to insinuate that you've been brainwashed, which implies malice, but rather inadvertently indoctrinated, through nobody's fault, to take the "you can do anything you want if you put your mind to it" mantra to it's logical extreme. My personal opinion (take it or leave it) is that if one is unable to pursue an activity without the use of drugs, then likely that is not an appropriate use of one's time. If you really want to get in to a lengthy discussion on my view of how modern society forces us into homogenous units and leads to things like drug use, anorexia, consumerism, etc to make us fit the mould presented for us, please feel free to email me at the address in my profile.