> then a little voice would tell me
You may not answer if you don't want to but from an idle curiosity: do you have an inner monologue in your regular life?
> Photos I took for a mugshot in this period show a slight shine in my eyes that I hadn't befor
It's always fascinated me how 'the mirror of the soul' not only a very apt metaphor but how we see it even when it's a still shot.