My problem is that I'm always sleepy throughout the day and when I have to go to bed at nigh, then I feel so active and energetic, as if my body tries its best to avoid sleeping.
- two pieces of fruit per day
- two portions of vegetables per day
- half an hour of outside sunshine per day
- twice per week exercise until you sweat
- no sleep during the day
- get out of bed every morning around the same time
- no processed food!
Think of it like jet lag. If you travel to the other side of the world, you rapidly shift schedule in accordance with your habits (the timing of your meals, light exposure, activity, socializing etc), whether that be night or day. These inputs more than ever influence morning-ness or evening-ness qua chronotype, with the advent of limitless evening light and entertainment.
If you want to make sure, get a sleep study done.
Why do you think you are avoiding the bed as if you were afraid of dying in there. Exactly! You literally are.
It's not that simple to figure out what's going on unfortunately.
What I did :
- LSD (microdosing + a semi dose one year ago) did absolute wonders on my anxiety (which was what kept me energetic). I would then describe myself as having a general anxiety disorder and I now describe myself as chill af. It's amazing. I'm still stressed out by things but that's normal and not my default mode anymore.
- Prolonged-release melatonin keeps me asleep for the whole night
- Took the habit of reading in the bed. I'm so tired that most evenings, I have a really hard time to read 5-10 pages, I must fight to keep my eyes open.
I do want to take a bigger dose again because of the healing effects it had the first time but I’ve been procrastinating it for the last 6 months. So I’m stuck with irregular microdosing.
Also the effects are really long, like 12 hours. While it’s not an issue when you microdose (because you barely feel anything), it’s extremely complicated to find the right time to take anything bigger than that.
You need a full day free of any responsibility, in a good place and you need to want to dedicate the day to it. I have a job and I’m a dad so let me tell you that those days never happen :D
And the only time I took a biggest dose (half a tab), I felt very good after it but, hard to describe, I was was satisfied/happy with my experience and with the effects but still I just didn’t want to redo it for multiple months, not because it wasn’t good but because I felt I didn’t need it anymore.
Going for a walk can also rewire your brain, but doing so on LSD will probably rewire it more quickly. Whether that's good or bad depends on whether you do a good job with the rewiring. It comes down to how well you trust yourself.
Though you can have some solid hints. First it's important to say we are talking about psychosis related illnesses.
First one is nobody had mental illness in your family. Second one is your age : most mental illness develop when you are a teenager or in your early twenties. If you are 30+, you can consider that LSD will not reveal anything hidden.
Though you still get the risk of bad trip, which you can manage with a good set & setting and not being alone if you prefer.