This really does - I don't mean it in a disparaging way - read like a mid-life crisis writing. Having to come to terms with the fact that the "old world" is not the current world anymore, which is too bad, because you like the old one, and you don't quite fit in the new one either.

This feeling has existed across generations and most of us have to go through it eventually.

The world, however, is not any less real than it has always been and is not collapsing.