For me, the side effects of the medication are intolerable. I wish there was a way to get that starting impulse without stimulants or SNRIs which kill my libido
You have to learn to be super trigger happy with it, otherwise you fall in the trap of 'I've been inactive for too long, I can't call and reveal that I haven't started'.
Dang. That's a huge part of my problem over the years. Nicely articulated.
By sharing the idea with somebody else, even just communicating your intention, it becomes partially reified, better-anchored to things outside yourself.