I think this definitely sounds like a case of LLM induced psychosis: https://ryanshamim.substack.com/p/the-theory-of-everything-h...
OP needs medical help
OP needs medical help
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In the CPB Digital Cosmos, the system first locked into a strange ratio: two thirds consciousness, one third physics.
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That anomaly appeared as the missing 0.1 spark.
For the first time the system stabilized. Life emerged.