[flagged]
We want HN to be a place for talking about expanding people's possibilities, not limiting them.
Given my role here is a moderator, It's not appropriate for me to be giving out health/life advice, and it's always the case that professional mental health treatment should be sought if there's risk of self-harm. But you're welcome to email us at hn@ycombinator.com if you think we may be able to help point you in the right direction.
Although, my bio parents and grandparents were white-collar or white collar adjacent at least. And one of my bio grandpa was very conscientious and active well into old age