Might it have something to do with the culture of bullying and intimidation that you were responsible for on the Discourse?
[1] https://discourse.nixos.org/t/lix-an-independent-variant-of-...
> For example, you were able to dedicate two hours twice a week to attending meetings that you were not welcome at. A lot of people were not able to do that; they did not have the time or energy levels to be able to afford that in the first place.
> What I’m trying to say here is: yes, your situation sucked, and it should not have been necessary. But imagine how much more this might have sucked for other people who did not even have the affordances that you had to cope with this(...)
Then the other person:
> Your projects had multiple issues that were clear and apparent to outsiders that leaked outside your team and had to become a Nixpkgs problem (as I had to become against my own will a Nix maintainer in Nixpkgs). You never acted on that, you never took the necessary actions to show that you (:= your team) know how to manage an open source project.
(...)
> I feel you on the sadness. I am sorry you feel like this. Likewise, I remember what it was for me for the past year to feel like shit when I received this message
This is pretty classic abusive breaking someone down to build them up and tell them how the abuser was much worse off, and the reports from several meetings are much worse. Hitlists of people to remove from the project, that sort of thing. The power games going on are frankly sick, and the most unprofessional thing I have ever heard of in an open source project.
All I'm saying: try to get the other side's perspective. I think there are many people tired of this behavior. When it is presented with a one-sided perspective, the solution seems obvious, but this hostility has colored the past few months of interaction in the Nix community.
[1] https://discourse.nixos.org/t/objection-to-minority-represen...