You might be asking too much of a job.

Speaking from my own experience, the only times I've ever looked for a job that "made me feel whole" were also the times I felt like other important parts of my life were empty, and I was trying to compensate for that by finding some mythical job that would "complete me."

It's as big a mistake to ask that of a job as it is to ask it of a partner. If you don't show up to the situation already whole, no one person/thing else is going to fix that for you.